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I feel strange sometimes

Like I can’t even remember how to breathe, and life is just suspended, frozen, without movement. And then something happens, and suddenly, I can breathe again.

I close my eyes and take a deep breath.
There he is. Across the room, waiting for me, for our first date.
Breathe out.
Everything about him is hot. His hair, his hands, that little smile on the corner of his mouth.
Breathe in.
Holy shit, the way he smiled at me and locked eyes as I sat down made me think I was in trouble.
Breathe out.
His voice, deep and smooth, confirmed it.
Breathe in.
After five minutes, I was already looking for an excuse to end the date and take him home.
Breathe out.
I didn’t even need that, he wanted the same thing I did.
Breathe in.
Took him home,
and he never went back to his place.
Breathe out.
Marriage.
Seven years.
Breathe in.
Kids.
Mine first, then ours. He never hesitated.
Breathe out.
He died.

Our last daughter was born after his death. I married Liz, and she adopted our kid. I met Hisayo. Rob. Nice marriages. A quick, failed marriage with a shallow celebrity. Kids are doing great. Stole the devil’s archive once more. Robbed a bank in every city. Most wanted by the FBI. Hanging ten in every city. Things look great again. Don’t they?


Breathe.

Just breathe.

Are you breathing?

Breathe in.
That boy is fun.
Breathe out.
Is it wrong to have fun again?
Breathe in.
No, it’s not.
Breathe out.
Kobe, something’s wrong.
Breathe in.
Pregnant? At this age?
Breathe out.
Do you want to keep the baby? Not sure.
Breathe in.
No worries, you have time to decide.
Breathe out.
Time’s up. It’s a girl.
(The cutest)

Breathe in.
Life is a leap of faith.

Breath out.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
Breathe in...